The first song I heard was Oingo Boingo's Only A Lad. My buddy, Steve Flock, turned me on to them. I actually smiled thinking of Steve and our time at Shadle Park High School. I've never told you this, but you've had a huge impact on my life, bud. I really love you like a brother.
The next song was Peter Gabriel's Shock the Monkey. I remember loving that song in school. I have no idea what the song really is about, I' ve just always dug the chorus.
Kids in America by Kim Wilde came on next and got me thinking which lead to this mobile blog post.
What happens when you realize you're no longer young?
I'm 42 this year. I still feel mentally young. I often feel the same way about ideas and things just like I did when I was 18. Is that normal?
"Save me from tomorrow" is a lyric in the INXS song Ship of Fools that's in my ears right now. I understand that feeling now.
I see people on television who are listed as 40 and I think "Damn, they look old." It shocks me when that thought invades my brain.
I want to scream at the world, "My hair may be grey but I'm not fucking old!"
But I realize my knee hurts from a minor ski accident I had in January. The latest doctor visit revealed I now have high cholesterol.
My daughter is 19 and full of youthful innocence and vibrance and thinks she has the world figured out. I had dinner with her last night and wondered if I was ever so bright and shiny.
Of course, I was like that. And the New Wave music proves it. I listen to 80's hair metal all the time. Due to that it never makes me feel really young. Rock is the soundtrack of my life, but New Wave is the sound of my youth.
42 isn't old, but it's not really young either.
So, I'm going to close my eyes for a bit and continue to listen to New Wave and imagine life is still shiny and new.
By the way, If You Leave by OMD is playing now.
Come join me in the 80's.
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